a shape of say

i grab fists
of body every time
here. standing.

biting tongue.
pulling hair.
telling. again.

i lose.
focus.
licking lips. crossing

knees. thighs. this
lower body way to
express my silent

code of un-lockable.
what unfocussed eyes
circle into seeing.
and i will
pretend. appease.
make comfort seem

as if i can grip
what i never tell.
locked within

one.
voice. my
expression. taking

form.