deities. surrender.

memories of wishing and sending for
you. i mean him. it was like one complete
actual. a literal place of more.
i held him quietly inside of me.
loud sounds still occurred and life did not stop,
but there was truth that i beamed like never
while he held me and swore i would not drop;
savoring each word. embracing clever.
have you ever learned to stand quite this tall?
stomp out emotion and straighten your spine.
i stepped five high to quietly break fall.
i gave back mutual and took back mine.
i am a woman of life, surrender
to none. collapse as simply God’s helper.