sometimes. i am not supposed to say…

i tend. to speak
in an outside world. a land
you will never have wide enough eyes
to absorb a view from my seat.
to possess a river
flow. move in terms
of gravity. of pull. of grounding.
if i were to speak
(what i really am)
feeling. this surface
would burn. would ignition inspire
you to take more steps down,
when i never imagined.
you can get lower
below dirty feet,
because that is where you
wish for belonging.
ponder acceptance.
you’re…
shallow embrace. filthy
lies. offering of your grounding.
tell me again…
how clever
you
wish.