Well, this weekend sucked – like last weekend. I slept as much as I could. I was invited out, I declined.
The only thing I want, is the luthier. (more…)
July 24, 2016 Posted by the writer
Well, this weekend sucked – like last weekend. I slept as much as I could. I was invited out, I declined.
The only thing I want, is the luthier. (more…)
July 23, 2016 Posted by the writer
Two (an excerpt)
“We kiss in Sperlonga,” he promises. “…my voice is F flat, it’s terrible. I know this.”
“I only dream of you,” I tell him. “Every night. Every night, I dream of your touch.”
“Every dream, I feel your touch.” (more…)
July 22, 2016 Posted by the writer
So it’s 8am on Friday. Here are my top ten stats of the day, it’s been a minute since a top ten.
Top ten stats of Friday so far.
10. The amount of minutes it took me to get myself out of bed.
9. The number of dreams I had about the luthier last night.
8. The current time.
7. The number of texts I’ve swapped with the luthier so far today. (more…)
July 21, 2016 Posted by the writer
I’m hanging on by a thread blog tribe.
Right now I’m listening to Vinicio Capossela. I spent the morning wandering around the east river and exchanging a few “we will always be together” messages.
Saremo sempre insieme…
I moped around my apartment. I’ll go to work soon.
Work is actually helping. I’m all about distraction as a coping mechanism, huge fan.
Meanwhile, my heart has copped a historic beating. The weekend was beyond terrible. I don’t really feel like doing anything besides counting days. That’s essentially what I’ve been doing. Counting days and studying Italian. Hopefully I can speak a few licks when I leave.
In another 19 dreadful days. (more…)
July 18, 2016 Posted by the writer
It’s about three am. There’s a reason I haven’t been around for four days.
I’ve spent most of the time feeling bad for myself, generally self-loathing. Some of this behavior I put back to my non-traditional upbringing. Most of it I put to the fact that the absence of the love of my life has me slowly suffocating.
Considering that I have never been in a relationship of a comparable capacity, with any man, my entire life… prior to now – it’s safe to say nothing like this has been mentioned in my corner of web-land over the past close to nine years.
Dudes, that’s like a decade of my life. (more…)