I don't have a boyfriend again. After we spent four days making up, I had an anxiety attack this afternoon and told him we shouldn't see each other. This is upsetting for a spectrum of reasons. However, I feel myself retreating to the safety of where I cut the world off and fall into a meditative state of complete nothingness. There are a lot of reasons I suck at being a girlfriend. However, I find my greatest issue in feigning relationships...
We made up. That was the worst fight ev-ER. I don't fight with anyone. I leave. My boyfriend refers to me as a "flight risk". That is a bit of my mantra. There's more than one reason that I have two passports. I've been in Brooklyn since Friday. Later on today, when I'm done with work, I'm going to write filthy stories about Cony Island. I'll post one tonight. There's something about Anthony and I that is utterly divine. We're never allowed to...
Namaste blog tribe A month from today, I leave for Tahiti. I'm going to Tahiti, alone, to hide out for a few days and squat in a water hut. It's quite a grown-up moment, actually. When I started this webpage I didn't know how I was going to write professionally in Manhattan, now I'm jet-setting to Tahiti, alone, to play with the words I've been spooling for the past four years. The number of stories and general written work I have is baffling....
aspiring amore I was. Thinking in poetry again. Green-blue constellation eyes. Staring. Back. I inhaled now and stopped wishing for when. I straightened my spine and felt my bones crack. A bounce in my step and new aura glow; Like there’s no longer a possible stop. And never invention of the word no. The expansion of my heart. Stomach drop. What I didn’t say came out through my pores. Sunlight showers washing my grey sky days. Opening...
I've been working two full-time jobs lately. One writing, one falling in love. And as much joy that I take in being a professional Writer... the second job is why I've been so scarce. I actually took the D train to Brooklyn for the first time the this week. Anthony and I decided this is a more practical choice from time to time opposed to an $80 return cab fare. Although, as my boyfriend puts it, "40 bucks each way to get us to each other in...